Another Dilemma

Do you often question if your life is already planned for you? Do you ever ask yourself why bother working hard if your life is already set? Recently, I have been asking these questions due to a combination of being a second-semester senior and less school work. As relaxing as it may feel right now, I know, for a fact, that being lazy will get me no where - trust me, I tried it. But then again, coming home from school, sleeping until 7 or 8 o'clock beats the hell out of doing homework and studying. This is pretty much my life right now: sleep a lot, eat a lot, do very little. I hate to admit it, but it feels very nice.
Sometimes I convince myself that someone has already planned out my life. I often pray that he would take care of my future, and I certainly believe that he will. Considering how much I trust him, it is very tempting to set up the cruise control and roll along. But given how I feel about this whole dilemma, I have come to a conclusion. He only rewards those who work hard - I think that's what he said. In the past few days, I was rewarded with some college acceptance letters. But at the same time I'm scared that if I stop working hard, I won't get anymore acceptance letters.
However, this conflicts with my other belief that my life is already planned out. I guess that this depends on my definition of a "successful" life. So I have decided that I will stop being lazy and start putting some effort back into my school work. Therefore, I won't feel as bad and maybe some more good news will arrive.

update!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I was too busy being a second semester senior!!
But in all seriousness, the past couple of weeks have been pretty serious.
Finals were hectic and stressful, but my grades came out...not too bad.
Winter formal was last night, and it was so much fun. They had a swing dancing room and my date and I pretty much owned all the other people with our sexy sweet skills.
We also rode in a horse carriage, and the horse's name was Stellar! I lol'ed.

So I rolled my ankle last Friday, and now its like 80% healed but I have some big bruises on the sides. It looks crazy! Surprisingly, I was able to dance like a superstar last night, just kidding.

I've started a new book in English class, its called White Noise, written by Don DeLillo.
So far, the book is so stylistically different than anything else we have read. It is a postmodern book that discusses the idea the people turn to consumerism instead of religion, when they are near times of death. I can't wait to finish it!

So yeah, this has been my past few weeks.